I feel with weight loss it is inevitable to fail. Boy did I fall. I loss y diet bet, and gained 2 pounds in 4 weeks. Failure is a peculiar thing. When I first fail, I want to give up. I stop caring, lose my desire to try, and go back to my old ways.
Today is day 2 of my reboot. I have surrounded yes elf around great friends who encourage me to do better. I gain greater confidence in myself as I speak with them and talk about the truth behind my failure. I am scared of change. This lifestyle is easy, and comfortable. I am scared that loosing the weight won't help, and most of all I am scared I won't succeed.
I have no desire to look like a card board cut out. I have no desire to look "hot" I just want to feel like myself, just healthier. I feel beautiful most days, but I have an understanding of what others see. My weight is not attractive to most men, and I feel that my lack of confidence makes me less approachable. I want to run free!
So yes, I did fall. Falling hurts, but if I can get back up;then I can keep moving forward.
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